Sometimes, I really don't know what I'm feeling.
Just when you think that you have gotten everything figured out, something has to happen to tip over the balance and somehow, the process seems never ending.
I hate that sometimes, triggers can be so small, yet there can be a reaction that totally catches people off guard.
Happens in history on a large scale, happens in personal lives with feelings. It may only affect a few people, but it does make us wonder about how life is so unpredictable.
Gearing up for something you've been waiting for such a long time, and suddenly, the unexpected occurs and everything just gets thrown off the track. Life does not have a straight path, does it?
Maybe that's why people decide to be spontaneous. At least there's some sense of control in your own life. That you just go with the flow and be random as you want to depending on circumstance.
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"Pain had always been part of love so instead of looking someone who couldn't hurt you might as well better try finding someone that is worth the pain" As quoted from a really close friend. True, isn't it?
When life loves to throw so many surprises at you, something painful always happens. And well, someday, that someone who's worth the pain might just end up relieving all the pain you've ever experienced. Someday.
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It seems somewhat a blessing in disguise that my phone decided to die on me, at least until Tuesday.
Money for a good lesson learnt maybe? I never knew phones were so vulnerable in that sense.
But then again, it's nice re-discovering old songs that I used to listen to a lot, and breaking out of the playlist that I've been playing for so many weeks.
我站在回憶的入口 蒐集我左胸口暴走的寂寞
赤裸裸的失落 一目了然的痛 讓我無法說淚是因為吹風
我沿著命運的箭頭 無奈向前走到下個人的懷中
愛你還沒愛夠 你卻要我放手 誰懂在時間的秘密花園中 你從沒走
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