Finally went cycling today after a few months. I think the last time was some See2 outing sometime :/

Nice people, nice weather, nice times.

Thanks everyone for the great day today. It was way better than I expected.

A lot can happen in 24 hours.

And I realized that I really have a great class, a class filled with warmth, laughter and really great people.

I don't know how many of you actually know this address, but really, thanks people for being such a wonderful group of people! ^^

I don't think I laughed so much before this year.

And today, I just about got a stomachache from laughing.

Really thanks people! You let me know what it means to have a truly great class. <3

And GEMS was awesome ^^

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And I quite love the feeling of cycling, just exercising your legs, taking in the scenery, feeling the rush of the wind. It's something that can let you think a lot, and relax a lot.

Oh, and Viking was pretty scary. First time going on one, interesting experience that was. Shortness of breath lol. Quite nice for a first experience I suppose. Somehow.

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People say that it is a fine line between love and hate.

A trigger can cause you to cross that line, but if that trigger never comes, it's really not that fine a line after all.

Because if it was, maybe the world could be a happier place, to some individuals at least. But then not good if the place was filled with hate too. :/

♥ 9:41 PM

There are some things that never fail to make you smile. ♥

It may not truly be happiness from within, or it might last for just a short moment.

But the significance is huge.

Never knew just plain words could make one so happy.

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Ended up doing nothing productive today, and obviously typing the 3Cs for one essay question does not really count for anything.

I shall see how dead I'll be tomorrow morning.

Japanese Occupation notes are looong >< How to do essay question? :/

But then again, catching up on some things are quite worth it, somehow ♥

Though I don't necessarily like myself for doing that.

♥ 12:47 AM

Feeling as helpless as ever today.

I suppose there are a lot of times that we can do nothing to do at all. But gosh, why is it so hard? :/

I want to help, and there's seriously nothing I can do.

Except stand by and watch, and yet again utter words of comfort which probably really don't help much.

Fate is cruel, at so many instances. Or maybe 命運就是喜歡捉弄人.

No wonder some would start doubting the existence of fate.

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I hate my carelessness.

It delays so much time, costs me so much in terms of results and probably a lot more.

And the worst thing is, I thought I put in enough care into it.

Blehs.

Need to desperately work on Math, I'm not going to die in 7 weeks' time due to all the dumb mistakes I make.

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It's really quite amazing how with changes of feelings and thoughts, your whole view of things will change.

What used to be quite mundane and dumb now can seem wonderful and great.

I can't believe I just spent 1 hour getting enlightened on what I missed out on before, but well, at least it was a nice time.

Happiness can be quite simple at times, when you don't need to care about anything in the world.

Alas, being free from cares seems to suggest that you will cease to exist on this world.

What is true happiness?

Biological answers probably don't work much.

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忽然這一個瞬間 一個眼神交錯的曖昧
心跳呼吸開始糾結 你的笑容秒殺所有美
靠近你多麼危險 愛上了癮已無路可退
瞬息之間王國摧毀 不怕為你扛下所有罪

Pretty touching set of lyrics. And nice song too. <3

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I really want to go over and give you a hug, if that will make you feel better.

♥ 9:52 PM

I think sometimes, bliss really does come from the inner self.

It could be deception, it could be real as far as you are concerned, so long you can achieve that inner bliss, at least you can be happy for the moment.

It really doesn't take much. Maybe just a good time and a good place.

Thinking things through does work wonders.

And when I can finally put down whatever has been weighing on my mind, it's a huge relief, truly.

I suspect this state of happiness won't last for long, some random thing will crop up again.

But at least it's a start.

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A to-do list to accomplish by tomorrow hmm.

Some things really cannot afford to be dao-ed, no matter how much I want to. I suppose econs is one nice example. And maybe history notes reading haiz. I remember nothing from the lecture, except for maybe paramilitary.

But since Sunday is pretty much gone cycling, tomorrow is a start.

I quite look forward to cycling.

Long time since I got on a bicycle, it's nice to just whiz past and enjoy the scenery without feeling that tired.

Cycling sounds oddly peaceful.

♥ 11:49 PM

Fears greatly need to be overcome.

Much as I would like to say that you can put yourself in other people's shoes if you really true, the fact is that you can't.

I mean the feeling of fear is something that is known to you and only you. And I would think that the feeling of fear that people get are all different.

You can't tell me that you understand what I'm going through because you can't.

And it's even dumber to laugh at me when I just want to vanish off this earth and wished whatever thing didn't exist either.

There are a lot of things I fear.

And out of which, two of them may seem common, but it's really hard to find someone who can actually know 50% of what I'm going through at that moment in time. Really and truly hard.

I sound like a coward, and I probably am in many aspects.

This still doesn't give you the right to laugh, no matter how close you are to me.

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The view from the 4th floor in school is pretty nice.

Never went up there to study, until today, and not that I was really studying either.

The number of things, and people you can see from up there is pretty amazing.

It's an amazingly short period of time until the doom called promos arrive.

And well, it kind of doesn't help if you just finished going through some block test paper haha.

Time feels really tight all of sudden, all the more why I shouldn't be blogging here, but oh wells. I needed to get all my emotions out somewhere safely.

First time staying in school until so late since block test revision days.

Quite enjoy the nice sky especially from the top level. And it's cooler when you're lying down on the bench haha.

But well, at least today felt kind of productive. Kind of.

Must jiayous for the rest of the 7 or 8 weeks ^^ It's a must to improve grades.

And whew, essay plans take up loads of time!

I foresee going home late for a lot of Thursdays. xD

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有些事情, 越不要去想, 越容易出現在腦海裡.

♥ 11:05 PM

Okay, so I ended up sleeping too early again.

And still regretting.

No wonder I never seem to get my work done right.

And shit still a lot more to go.

If I was free from whatever teachers dump on us, I rather have a wonderful sleep than bother about work which doesn't really seem to help me.

Sleep still ranks on top priority, just at supremely wrong timings.

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I need to learn to be more disciplined.

Like seriously.

♥ 5:52 AM

Today feels way more productive than the past i don't know how many days :D

Something worth celebrating over definitely! Even if I was supposed to be productive. Sleep deficit half cleared does sound like a pretty good reason.

But yesss, EoM finally looks presentable!

And history is done! For now anyway :D

Lol I think I'm too high from this rush of achievement I'm feeling ><

Quite funny how my mood can contrast so much at the beginning and near end of the day :D

Hopefully this goes on.

I want to be happy. And high. Even if it probably means I look like some lunatic LOL.

And whew need to start thinking of what else to do.

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Printer still no ink. OMG this sucks.

♥ 12:22 AM

If there's anything I had to do desperately, it's probably to give myself a huge scolding for sleeping at 7pm last night, knowing full well that there are so many things due today. EoM for one. My EoM is going to end up being sent back to me for further editing again, at this rate. And my part of the essay. Seriously, it was late to begin with. And what did I do? Sleep all the way till 4.30. My life pretty much sucks when sleep takes priority over my promise to others.

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I can't stand the feeling of being so helpless, being unable to do anything to help the people I want to help.

Even if I say I understand, that probably isn't the case 90% of the time, because I haven't been through the situation before.


And in these situations, words suddenly seem so hypocritical.

I hate it when this happens. Really.

Much as I want to help, I don't know where to start and this just makes it worse when ti's for the people I care about.

What on earth is this world coming to?

I wish I could experience it, even for just one day, to know what you're going through.

Jiayous, when overused, looks disgusting, I realized.

Probably for now, the only thing I can do is to start wishing, praying that well, maybe everything will turn out fine.

But again, since when did all the things we ever wished for turned out right? 10% chance that it will go according to the way you want.

Helplessness still sucks.

Maybe, someday, when you read this, you'll know what I've been talking about.

I'm really sorry I can't help much.

That wasn't just a statement with no meaning. No matter how cliche it looks and sounds, I really mean it.

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Can only cling on to that hope for one week at the most. After that, I really don't dare to wish for anything else.

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The opportunities that every person gets can never be equal, no matter how you try to spin a lie out of that.

There's no need to even look at each individual, just looking at the different streams would do.

People know fully well, which stream gets most opportunities. It's a trend all over the world I suppose.

Arts students never did learn how to count, did they?

But well, I'm seriously considering taking up a H3 for history, just because I really want to go for it.

What I become in the future probably doesn't matter as much. So what if I know? That just makes living in the present a bit unhappier when you realize that you don't cut the grade.

Happiness is key.

Yet it's quite amusing how I pretty much hate myself for so many small things, yet can delude myself into being happy most of the time.

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收藏 你的背影变成无价之宝

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Oh and I love it when the printer runs out of ink at 5am.

Prepare to get killed for EoM late submission.

♥ 5:25 AM

Woke up today feeling quite blur. Erratic sleeping habits are oh so wonderful. Next time, I shall never decide to just take a *short* break on the sofa. But then again, since I never learn, you will find me complaining someday about wrong decisions to rest again.

This morning was quite interesting, thought-provoking. There is a reason why every single thing happens. And for me, I suppose deciding to walk in to nanyang through the side gate and not the main gate made quite a big difference. Interesting how all the different choices and timings can come together to make a thing happen in the end. Insightful conversation, even though admittedly I was zoning out at times. You can't blame me for feeling sleepy at 7 plus in the morning.

Still can't help thinking about this morning, even if I am feeling quite lazy to just go find out more.

Lol I'm talking in circles or something. Just because the content of the conversation so shouldn't come up here. Lest I end up offending people or something, which does seem very plausible given the society we all live in.

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Nice to actually know that they moderated econs marks. I suppose the level did quite badly in general >< But whew, I bet I still scraped that grade. Weird ways of calculaiton hmm.

It's somewhat amusing to see how everyone is talking about the string of grades they get. And obviously I'm amusing myself here too.

Is it actually better to do the same in all subjects and be an average person, or is it better to have a strong subject?

While yes, it's probably taken for granted to be something like all-rounded nowadays. But when it's equally bad at everything, that doesn't really say much >< Maybe except the fact that you can juggle things and end up dropping everything. At least, if you have a strong subject, you feel at least comforted that there is something you can actually do well at. You can improve on those subjects you aren't very good at, but improving everything at the same time seems pretty hard ><

Shouldn't be complaining so much, since I was expecting this kind of results already. Waiting to see parents' reactions when the result gets delivered to this wonderful little box sitting quite ominously in the void deck.

Funny that my strongest subject turns out to be GP :/

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Need to really keep track of the stuff that are due.

♥ 11:25 PM

Grahs. Some people seriously just don't get it.

My temper seems to be quite bad nowadays haiz. And it's obviously not because I don't get enough sleep. I get too much of it probably, given my dumb erratic sleeping habits.

When I say no, that means no. Stop trying to do some more things to get me all boiled up please. At this rate, my volcano will explode and obviously the person involved won't get anything. Just my family. Which is not good.

Otherwise today would have been quite a nice day.

Apart from maybe grades coming back, and the fact that I'm going to get a big fat egg due to applications of integration.

Since when did my Math become so bad? ><

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Need to calm down.

And start doing more things that are productive in nature.

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I don't want to wake up so early tomorrow haiz.

♥ 10:32 PM

Today was a wonderful day. And I was actually quite depressed in the afternoon lol.

Quite amazing how a few things can lift spirits so much!

Four seasons finally complete again! ♥ And truly, I never really knew how much I missed it until today. And just by looking at pictures, not even videos yet! Can't imagine how high I can get maybe later or tomorrow xD

But whew, walked a loooong way today. Kind of realized that life has been quite stationary these days, apart from the occasional PE lessons and walking to and fro the MRT station.

Somehow, everytime I go out for this kind of thing, always walk so much. And no, the distance is not short -.- Toa Payoh is a huge place, and walking from Orchard to Dhoby Ghaut didn't help LOL.

But ah wells, still a nice day. Relaxing and actually got my mind off any kind of troubles I had over exams and stuff. Although I think I was behaving quite weirdly ._.

A lot of motivation to do work suddenly! At least not tired, though I suspect I'll be sleeping off to nowhere during GP and Math tomorrow. Or maybe break.

And while the mood is here, productivity shall increase! :D

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Hmm sadly, no straight chain. Not that I was expecting much from Econs anyway. Quite amusing to see how I scraped through forgetting everything about PED.

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Need to think of positive things to keep happy. What's the point in dwelling so much, no matter how bad the environment seems?

And yes it's true, sometimes, there's something more to a home than just a house. And sadly, that can be quite lacking.

♥ 11:23 PM

Haiz, and yet again, blogging when I'm supposed to be doing work that is way more important. All of a sudden, my to-do list just expanded by like twice or something. Academics stuff is quite a bother ><

And as usual, being quite tired and I have a feeling I am going to fall asleep very soon again. Not that that hasn't happened. It's been happening a lot recently, explaining my piles of unfinished work. I wasn't kidding when I said my current hobby is sleeping ._. If hobbies are to be defined as the things you enjoy doing during free time.

I think sometimes, some people just don't get the hint haiz. Not that I get hints a lot but oh wells. A lot of full stops would be more than enough I thought. Note to self, take note of the tone of other people next time. Who says sorry and gives a wink smiley sia. Feels quite fake to me but oh wells. I suppose I'm not in a very good mood when I'm tired ><

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On a happier note besides ranting, I wonder how many people actually know my Chinese name and the way it's pronounced accurately. And written lol. Other than those from my class haha. Feels like I'm defying my own name when most people call me by my English one. -.-

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Some things might seem quite insignificant, but are actually so great in meaning.

People say that nothing is impossible in this world. Much as I would like to agree, there are just too many things that seem quite impossible to me. Including overcoming the dumbest fear ever haiz.

Wednesdays are starting to look pretty gloomy.

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Shall start editing EoM again hmm.

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愛是不可數的嗎　為何我還相信
它不是獨行俠　我在等一個人
在等我的永恆　告訴我愛不單行別害怕

I'm seriously addicted to this <3

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Still ended up doing nothing.

And I realized one interesting thing. All Cs so far. How nice. Not.

♥ 9:43 PM

Much as I should be trying to chiong PW now, I don't exactly feel like it, again because I half feel like sleeping. I thought I slept enough yesterday blehs -.- Doesn't help when a lot of other factors come into play.

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This afternoon felt like the most productive day in ages, since for one, I actually finished Tutorial 6A, any of which I could do (which happens to be around one third). I'm convinced that my visual representation of stuff is quite fail. Someone tell me why vectors actually seemed okay for a moment. A short moment, but still.

Finally got back one paper after something that seemed like eternity. Can't say that I am very depressed over my marks, since I was kind of expecting that for history. Though getting the same mark and making no improvement shows quite a big sign of doom. But ah wells, at least it's maintained. Still have the other half of history to wait for hmmmm.

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I realized that the bus and MRT makes for wonderful opportunity to space out and start reflecting a lot, especially if there is no music or anything to get you distracted. (Still can't believe I forgot my adapter -.-)

One thing I kind of truly realized today, was that seriously, my life revolves around those pathetic few insignificant things that probably don't contribute much to making my life more meaningful. Enjoying life is different from living life.

Quite ironic that I could crap out one entire essay for GP about how "To live is the rarest thing in the world". But my actual life is something like a total reflection of what I defined as "to live". Putting things down in words and taking concrete action seem like two different matters altogether. But then if there isn't even the idea there, no action would be formulated, or would there?

Someday, I should really go and reflect some more and figure out what on earth I want to do with my life. And maybe actually start doing it.

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Can't remember what else I was going to say. Short-term memory much. -.-

But oh wells, need to get back to PW, eeks.

And maybe to distract myself from the pain.

Bad luck today ><

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躲進我的宇宙, 最安全的星球.

♥ 11:07 PM

Okay, so I kind of decided to still not sleep.

And since I still had nothing else to do, I began all the reflecting again.

I find it quite amusing how the ethics quiz in GP gave me a result of three ties. Like seriously ><

I thought moral compasses were supposed to be more, uh clearly defined ><

And when I tried looking back on the answers to see which ones I could change, it's quite funny to see how I still agree with every single one of the choice made.

That said, I still don't think that morals can be measured with a quiz like that.

It's just amusing how my ethics quiz results ended up being compared to Harry Potter sorting hat >< Depends on what I choose? Frankly, I don't know.

Good point made today, why are you a good person?

Because you have a good moral compass and don't want to betray your own conscience? Or because you just need to live up to societal expectations that everyone is supposed to be good?

I still can't figure out my stand on this. Which probably explains how I'm going to end up dao-ing any single GP question on ethics. Too complicated. There's a reason why everybody has been arguing about it for so long, yet nothing concrete has come out of it.

Today felt like the most productive GP lesson so far, at least I started really thinking about things.

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Wishing that life was simple. But then again, it never is.

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I need to make full use of Sticky Notes to remind myself of things due. If not, at this rate, I'm just going to end up getting myself into wayyy deep trouble.

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I wonder what would have happened if I had chosen to go today. But oh wells, no point regretting.

Still hoping that everything tomorrow will be worth it! :D

Though waking up early doesn't sound very tempting to me ._.

♥ 11:14 PM

Frankly quite tired today, maybe because I slept a bit too late last night ><

But well, quite funny how I only feel tired after eating my dinner. Food does funny stuff to me.

High temptation to just go collapse and sleep now, be in best condition tomorrow xD

But then I doubt sleeping early will do much to help me wake up a bit earlier tomorrow.

Feeling quite bad for today, but always have other things to take into consideration ><

As pessimistic as all my results seem so far, I still want to know them. It's probably better not to be left hanging there waiting and debating whether I met the requirements for any kind of essay. And much as I will get quite depressed over my results, at least I can bounce back quite easily, as can be proven from math -.-

Quite a nice day generally, talked to people who I haven't kept in touch with for a long time. And even if it wasn't a really long conversation, at least it feels good to just talk.

Passing by some places are quite significant. Quite a lot of nice memories come up, and today especially so. Some things can never be turned back, but at least memories can be treasured.

I really wonder what will happen if that one day really came.

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I quite hate my insensitivity at times. -.-

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Today's a perfect day for slacking.

♥ 9:27 PM

Time to move on, from the past into the present.

It's been quite a long time, yet today marks the start of a significant thing.

While to a lot of people, yes, this isn't that important, it's just another day in that year, but well, there are some things that only you yourself know.

To truly affirm that the past is indeed remaining in the past, is quite a huge thing.

各自去新的世界, 不會連絡可是永遠 會想念 ♥

This makes much sense.

That last time was maybe more than 3 years ago, yet walking away from all of that took 3 years of time. Still thinking about it, it's hard not to when somehow a lot of things today are going to end up reminding me. But then, thinking is truly different from ___________.

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Wondering if I will get any kind of response hmm.

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Just spent my few precious hours of today sleeping off to nowhere in the living room.

I have to say, today's half day felt kind of pointless. Skipped my lunch and amazingly didn't complain much about it.

But well, sleep. Sleeping too much these days indeed.

Tomorrow sounds quite hard to survive, finally a CSC lesson on friday :O

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There are just some things I rather forgo just to spend time with the people I truly miss and care about. Always a nice thing.

♥ 1:06 AM

I realize that whenever I run out of inspiration to write for any kind of essay for any subject, I just end up getting inspiration to blog.

Though that might partly have to do with the songs playing into my ears now, pretty inspiring, and very nice, albeit a bit emo at times.

Okay, maybe and the fact that I can't link frictional unemployment to Singapore specifically, and feeling lazy to think of anything now.

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It's quite nice catching up with people I haven't talked to in a long time, nice feeling to be able to just talk.

And well, sometimes, I really can't help wondering how my life would be now if I just had chosen to take that different path. No matter whether the choice was mine to made or not, I somehow find myself changing a lot because of that decision.

I sure made nice friends, but I lost some too.

I got admittedly some nice opportunities, but lost many others that are probably more relevant in society today.

And well, the regret is still always there. Whether I choose to think about it and reflect on everything is another different matter altogether. Today is one of the rare few days I do that.

Maybe it's because a significant date is approaching.

It's been a habit for so long, I still can't quite help reminiscing and reminding myself constantly of what is to come. Even if a lot has changed since the exact same date last year.

I wonder if anything will happen. Part of me is hoping yes, part of me is dreading. But no matter what, it still doesn't change the fact.

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I just realised I have quite a lot of nice things to look forward to.

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最佳聽眾. Anyone who I confide in, and that's really a small number, gets that description. Because well, if I only have that many close friends who I really really care about, it sounds quite pathetic. But then again, why do you need so many confidants for? I'm grateful for those who are there for me when I need them, and for now, they're enough. Other friends are just purely friends.

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There are some people in life who are really important to you, but you will never go up and say hi to them because of varying reasons.

It could be because you just don't feel like it.

Could be because you just don't know what to say.

Could be because you just don't know how to behave in front of that person.

Could be because somehow, seeing that person still doesn't feel real, especially when you haven't seen him/her in so long. A few years is long.

I wonder why that happens so much.

♥ 12:37 AM

Few things I've learnt these days:

1. Punctuation is very important, especially for english.

2. Never be sarcastic on MSN, because tone doesn't reflect in words.

3. It's hard to stick to something especially when there's not much motivation to do it.

4. Sleep deprivation sucks.

5. Courage is very much needed in everything nowadays.

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Misunderstandings lately.

When sarcasm doesn't show and the other party ends up getting the wrong idea, without you yourself realizing it at that moment, it's quite one huge mess to take care of.

Even if it was actually kind of to my advantage that the misunderstanding occurred, since in a sense, I can be free, the point is that I think this kind of thing is quite hard to feel happy over.

It's probably going to be quite awkward these days, but at least the storm passed, and I feel a bit happier now.

A bit.

There are admittedly, quite a few other things to worry about, things that have been stuck in my mind for quite a long time, things undone.

But that will take care of itself, maybe. Time does help.

And meanwhile, I feel too slack even when I'm doing nothing when there is one nice to-do list staring at me in the face.

I still maintain that procrastination sucks.

And maybe, my will to do something kind of is sucky too.

At least tonight, I won't be sleeping that early. No idea if that is supposed to be good or bad. Need to start catching up.

Tomorrow sounds like a nice day, not.

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Sometimes, it is only the things that I look forward to that can make my day, no matter how imaginary it might be.

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Saturday is wonderful, truly.

♥ 10:44 PM

Lol ended up sleeping a bit too much after the last blog post. The wonderful powers of sleep, need to get back to a relatively more healthy sleep cycle >< Feeling uber refreshed now, and first time I ever woke up so early and happily on a weekend for months.

But wells, at least sleep can put the mind off certain things I have absolutely no wish to be thinking about, and been thinking about for the past hour or something.

I thought Fridays were supposed to be for staying up haha. And I still can't believe I slept through idk how many hours on the sofa when the TV was so obviously on and probably being quite noisy, given how dramas are all to a certain extent emotional.

But for now, still feeling quite dead, both for school and not.

How am I supposed to finish more than half of I&I today? >< Unless of course I end up just doing it during street sales tomorrow, which sounds like one of the dumbest ideas ever heard. Oh, right and history essay, coupled with another essay outline. 6 pages to write ><

Blehs. I need to catch up on a ton of stuff from last night.

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I have to admit, I'm the biggest coward I've ever seen.

♥ 10:34 AM

下午的阳光轻轻地打在身上，微风一阵阵地吹过，顿时让心房充满了温暖，忘掉所有的烦恼。这种天气还真的是好。

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Never actually thought that I would end up blogging so much, especially when all my previous ones had been really dead ones after a few weeks.

Memories. Simplicity.

Thinking back to the wonderful days of childhood, I realise that the most significant memories were the little moments that truly made me happy.

I still remember going down the staircase together, hand in hand. That sounds quite dumb, but truly such simple moments in life can form memories that will never fail to make you smile.

And while a lot of things have changed since then, including feelings, they will forever be the memories I love and treasure.

Past few days have really been quite enlightening, thought a lot about stuff. Some self-discovery week just went past or something.

Sometimes, the things you do are not really on purpose. Yet when things just end up turning out that way, you just end up blaming yourself for any single small action done. Self control is much needed. And I suppose the loss of my voice helps quite a lot, at least for today.

Almost one week since Sunday, I think the weather is getting to me -.- The nicest range of things ever.

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许下的承诺就一定要实现。即使过程再难，即使只是对自己许下的承诺，也不例外。就让时间冲淡这一切，全放在心里面。相信自己最好没错吧。

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我喜欢你，但这和你没有关系。

Came across this in some source that is better to be left unknown. But it does make sense. Having feelings for a person doesn't mean that the other party has to do anything about it. After all, they are just feelings right?

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Should be feeling happier, since there are so many other nicer things to be looking forward to. ^^ Just get through the enormous pile first lol.

♥ 5:44 PM

Really quite a roller coaster ride emotionally. Even if I haven't been on that scary ones before.

Watching dramas is a nice way to just forget about things, and escape into the little bubble, away from reality. Even when you watch dramas, you know that at least, in the end, most of the time, it is one nice happy ending. And while watching, at least you get feelings of happiness experienced, or maybe a bit of regret that never happened on you.

Quite regret some of the things I did lately, some words said lately, some actions never taken. But haiz, what's the point in thinking about these? I still don't learn from those well enough to know that next time, I should do something I won't end up regretting.

Maybe somewhere in my heart, I just can't do anything that well.

Just praying that no one is suffering from whatever wrong I think I did. ><

I just realised my math tutorial is undone, along with at least 10 exercises of I&I. Life after clearing PW isn't easy. Maybe PW was actually a bit better to a certain extent. And well, at least that was one goal I had.

Being distracted every night from now till maybe 3 weeks later from 10pm to 12.30am doesn't sound like a very good idea to me.

Sometimes, the sense of timing at which things happen is absolutely wonderful, seriously.

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Missing some of the most wonderful conversations ever had.

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I just realised that I have a lot of people I want to thank for all the wonderful memories I have so far.

♥ 1:16 AM

Blehs. There's a limit of how much PW I can stand in a day. Or night. Whatever.

When editing one chapter of PW gets sianz after 10 min, that's sad.

But thank goodness at least productivity goes up by a bit. At least a bit. I don't exactly feel like not sleeping before the day it's due again. Which coincidentally, is a Wednesday, again. How nice.

Caught up on my sleep, by a bit too much, but I suppose the sofa is naturally attractive to sleep on. Okay, maybe not, but at least the weather was unbearably hot.

Fluctuating mood today, or rather yesterday, but wells, I suppose after blocks is a sianz thing. Somehow, when the end of blocks come, it doesn't seem very nice ><

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I hate it when I accidentally close the window for no good reason. So many things to sign into -.-

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This post is pointless. I just needed to find something to do to distract myself from PW that is looming in the wonderful background. -.-

♥ 1:52 AM

我慢慢不能清醒
终于不想清醒
根本不用清醒 这个恶作剧

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I miss staying up so late. -.-

Or maybe rather, when some things happen, it's too late to turn back.

Life is indeed a joke these days. Irony of it.

Maybe some day, I will look back on these days and think about how foolish I was, and laugh at myself.

Because currently, even I feel like laughing at myself.

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Getting out of one pool of quicksand, just to sink into another one.

Some things in life really can't be helped, can they?

♥ 12:26 AM